Jennette McCurdy’s shocking new memoir I’m Glad My Mom Died is now a New York Times best seller, and it’s not just because of the grabbing title.

The memoir, which sold over 200,000 copies across all formats in its first week of release, explores McCurdy’s struggles with childhood stardom at Nickelodeon as well as the trauma she suffered at the hands of her abusive mother, Debbie.

McCurdy went on the Facebook Watch show Red Table Talk to chat with hosts Jada Pinkett-Smith, Willow Smith, and Adrienne Banfield-Norris, about the book, her life after Nickelodeon, and just how toxic her relationship with her mother truly was.

The incredible highlight was when she reading an email out loud that her late mother sent after seeing a photo of McCurdy on TMZ.

In a clip from the Red Table Talk conversation, the iCarly star reads aloud: "‘I am so disappointed in you ... You used to be my perfect little angel, but now you are nothing more than a little’ — all caps — ‘slut, a floozy, all used up.’”

She continues reading, “‘And to think you wasted it on that hideous ogre of a man. I saw the pictures on a website called TMZ. I saw you rubbing his disgusting hairy stomach.

I knew you were lying about Colton.' I had told her I was with a friend, Colton. ‘Add that to a list of things you are: liar, conniving, evil.’”

Debbie continues to berate her McCurdy, turning her rage towards McCurdy’s appearance in the photo, noting that she looks “pudgier.”

“‘It's clear you're eating your guilt,’” she continues reading. This comment was particularly triggering for McCurdy, who suffered from an eating disorder during her time on iCarly.